Month: August 2016

Amsterdam – Appelsap Fest


My annual trip to Amsterdam came around so quickly this year but this time my trip was done a little differently.
Amoung the usual shenanigans I normally get up to, I also attended the Applesap festival. I only found out about this event last year when I was in Amsterdam but unfortunately all the tickets was sold out at the time, so this year me and my girls made sure we booked in advance.

Applesap is a hip hop festival where US, U.K. And Dutch artist come together and party hard!

We arrived early hours of Friday morning and left on Sunday evening. Whenever I travel to Amsterdam I  always pack comfy attire as we walk everywhere! I packed a small hand luggage consisting Joni and Jamie jeans from Topshop, loads of body tops and 1 pair of sandals and my Addidas Superstars.

I had such a laugh with my girls (as always) partying throughout the weekend!
Check out my Vlog I captured on my iphone to see all the festivities

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Feeling sorry for myself!


I have exactly 2 months and 4 days until I turn a year older and I’m telling you now I’m not looking forward to it. It’s not that I dislike birthdays, it’s the fact that I’m getting older and still very much in limbo. In the last year I’ve moved on from what I thought was going to be my dream job, I’ve ended an on and off bullshit situationship and most recently (today) I have torn ligaments in my left leg. It’s just a series of bullshit things that hasnt gone right and I know all the uplifting sayings “good things come to those who wait” “all in gods plan”. But damn can’t I get one thing right. I am a planner, I planned how I wanted my life to be from a young age and the only thing that has gone according to this plan is graduating from university. Everything else is up in the air. I feel like everyone is moving forward and I’m stuck on rewind and pause. All my girlfriends are in relationships, I’m literally feeling like the only single woman left in the village. When will things fall into place for me?!

Turning older and the fear of being on my own has got me well and truly fucked up. I thought I’d at least be engaged and have a baby by now. I’m sure most will think it can’t be hard to find a guy and have a baby and you’re absolutely right. But to find a man you connect with, share the same views on life, someone who sparks your soul.. That shit right there is rare. I’m all in for building a life and making life long memories with someone. What I’m not about is being in a volatile relationship that breaks down leaving me being labelled as someone’s “baby mother”. 

This might come across as a moany post but quite frankly I don’t give a shit. Every now and then I reflect and get vex about my situation and need to vent. I’m sure I can’t be the only woman who feels like this.

I’m trying to keep faith because doubting and negative thinking blocks blessings. I just need some indication that something will work out for me. Xo