Month: April 2016

Protein World..1 week down 9 more to go!


I’m really enjoying my Protein world shakes but I would be lying if I didn’t admit that this first week has been challenging. Belly rumbles and cravings for anything sweet and cheesy is still occurring.. Shit as I write this I’m thinking about the lemon drizzle cake I had to decline and return back to my colleague ( my team at work want me to remain the same). I’ve been mixing my powder with different milks such as almond, hazelnut and coconut for different flavours which is delicious. Having the shakes is not the issue, it’s the inbetween of not having them that I’m finding hard. Dinner time is my favourite time of the day where I make healthy, nutritious and yummy meals such as fish and veg, lean turkey meat balls and salad. Ive also been hitting the gym hard, focusing mainly on cardio and a little weights. With 9 weeks to go of my 10 week challenge, I’m hoping these hunger pains will shift and I will start to smooth sail into my target weight!  xo

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The Start Of Protein World

  
I’ve been hearing and seeing really good things about Protein Worlds products specifically from my girl crush/ fitness guru Tammy Hembrow so I decided to incorporate the shakes into my healthy eating to kick start my road to getting a sexy body. I ordered the vanilla flavour as I thought it would give me more room to mix it with not just almond milk but also hazelnut and coconut. This morning was my first day and I must tell you it is soooo delicious. I was pleasantly surprised as majority of the branded shakes I’ve had in the past were all repulsive! Hence why I always ended up cheating and having a snickers lol. But Trust me when I say this shake is yummy. They have a few other flavours, banana, chocolate and strawberry  all of which I plan on trying! 

Black Is My Happy Colour – OOTD

The other day I joined my amazing friend at her photoshoot for her dope ass womenswear boutique ShopTwoThree (<<check them out!) and she decided to turn her camera on me! Ive never taken part in a photoshoot so i felt super awkward! lol I am someone who always wears black, its my favourite colour. If there was a darker colour than black I would love that as well!

Heres a few snaps from my “shoot” 🙂

 

Side Jacket

Studded Leather Jacket: ZARA – Black Jeans: Topshop

Bag square

Clutch: Miss Selfridge – A pop of colour to break up the black including rings from H&M

Bent over heels

Laced Heels: ZARA

I Am So Fat!

  
This is something I tell myself everyday. I have struggled with my weight my entire life! I was always known as the chubby/ fat one in my family and I was very aware and negative about my appearance from a very young age. I can remember being in primary school and feeling different to my friends. I knew I stood out not only was I chubby but I was also tall for my age. My dad used to tell me growing up “don’t worry about your body, it’s just baby fat, it will fall right off when you’re a teenager” I then hit my teens and my fat turned from baby to a grown ass adult. I was depressed about my weight which lead me to comfort eat and gain more weight. When I reached 20 years old I decided time for a change and I went on a strict diet plan of powdered shakes, soups and porridge. The taste of these packets were so disgusting that after a short while I couldn’t stomach them and resulted to just starving myself for 13 weeks. After I came to an end of my “starving programme”, I lost shit loads of weight – 4 stones to be exact and still I wasn’t happy with my body. Even though people and family told me I looked “too skinny” or “great” I still felt like I should lose more. 6 years later and I’m still struggling to lose weight and feel happy about my appearance. Although I’ve never gone back to my heaviest weight I still have been up and down on the scales between 1-2 stones. Today I was looking at all my body pics I have taken of myself on my phone ( I have a tonne) and realised that I actually didn’t look as bad as I felt at the time. I actually looked better than I do now ( see I’m still being negative) but within these pictures I hated my body, I felt fat and very negative towards myself. I’ve always known that I am my own worst enemy and I have a really bad negative attitude towards my body but today I got a wake up call. I realised that my body wasn’t that bad then and perhaps it isn’t that bad now. Calling myself FAT everyday is not the positive energy I’m trying to radiate in my life and I need to start placing myself in high regard. Yes my body isn’t the way I want it to be but you know what, I’m currently doing something about it. I’m eating healthy, i’m working my ass off in the gym so God willing I will see the results I want in due time. 

I read that speaking negative about yourself consequently leads to a snowball effect of failure leading to poor choices and regrets. I no longer want to make poor choices and have any regrets so from now on I will try really really hard not to use the word FAT. I’m going start showering myself with compliments and encouraging words. Maybe my negative attitude is my downfall, my reason for the lack of progression! Just to make sure I have my shit in order I have also told my friends they have full permission to slap me if the words happen to slip out my mouth. 🙂 

My First Feature On A Podcast Show!

 

Yesterday I was invited to radio presenter Mr Voltaire podcast show! The show took place at Westside Radio 89.6fm studios where myself,  4 opinionated ladies and 1 man (Mr Voltaire) spoke about real, hard hitting topics such as love, friendships, relationships and family dynamics! I had so much fun and I look forward to taking part again very soon!

Have a listen! 

Link: Mr Voltaire Pod Cast Show 30

Nutty About Buddah

  
Having recently moved house I am currently in the process of furnishing my bedroom. I have chosen to stick with a neutral colour scheme (white, black, silver and grey) so I’ve  been shopping around for items within this scheme.  I am obsessed with Buddah heads so when I saw these beauties I just had to take them both home. 

If you’re lucky you can find these items at TKMAX for a bargain price of £7.99 each!
 

Thick Thighs Might Save Lives BUT They’re Killing My Jeans 

  

  I’m sure every woman with thick thighs can relate! Jeans always seem to have a 12 month expiration date with me due to my robust thunder thighs. Today I have had to say farewell to my favourite ripped jeans and I can’t help but feel a little sad. You would think I would be accustomed to short term relationships with my bottom garments but these jeans hold memories of a great social year . Last year I had one of the best Spring/summers and now this hole represents an official closing to that chapter. 

Oh well time to buy some new ripped jeans I think! Xo

10 Weeks Till Summer… Apparently 

  

  
I saw a personal trainer post a count down till summer clock on Instagram yesterday and it really made me clinch my imaginary pearls. I mean what do you mean there’s 10 weeks till summer!?! I can’t believe how fast the days are flying by and I have still not made any progress with my body. My battle with my body is still on going ( mentioned about my body issues in previous posts) and Im annoyed with myself that a change is yet to come lol. With that said I’ve started my health kick on Monday, no junk food and back killing myself in the gym. It is day 4 and all I want is a fat slice of cake but the body pain I am currently experiencing is letting me know I must be doing something right in the gym and I don’t want my pain to be all in vain.

I told myself that 2016 is going to be about positive changes so with that said I am going to try document my progress throughout and stick to my plan. NO Junk and LOTS of exercise. 
I will keep you posted.. Stay tuned! 🙂 

Table for ONE please 

  
Being a single woman means that you have some form of tolerance being on your own and enjoying your own company. Out of all my friends I am now the only single one left which really has become apparent to me in the last 2 months. The dynamics of friendships have changed/ altered and although I am used to living the single lifestyle, calling up girlfriends to accompany me for drinks or a meal is not as easy as it used to be. Yesterday I was tired and hungry and all I craved for was prawn linguine so instead of fighting my cravings and staying wrapped up in bed hungry and miserable, I decided to doll myself up and cater to my own needs. Dinning alone can’t be that bad can it? Well yesterday I decided to shake off the fear of eating alone in public and go for it. 

Entering the restaurant wasn’t a problem, I was greeted with smiles and warm hellos but as soon as the words “table for one” exited out of my mouth the sympathetic looks from the female hostess immediately made me realise Shit, I’m really about to sit in this intimate Italian restaurant and eat alone. I encountered a few stares from females dining with their other halves and smiles from men dining with friends but my overall experience was… Pleasant. Surprisingly I enjoyed my meal, I enjoyed having time to myself, time to think and reflect on things. Will I do it again? Most likely. Why should I just sit at home alone missing out on things I want. This is not necessarily how I planned or want my life to be, but I’m used to catering to my own needs so taking myself out alone should not be an issue…. I guess